August 18, 2010 at 6:21 pm (Uncategorized)

Meds, child (two years old now!), notebooks, planners, household manual, discipline, punishment, cooking, chores, playtime, sex, sleeping, shifts, work, pets. Life.

It takes a lot of work. With the meds and gfcf, it is made possible for me. For us.

I’ve been feeling sort of . . . not out of control, but like I’m getting away with everything. Controlling behaviour, disrespect, not “thinking right”.

Is this really me, or is this because I read other sub blogs, people with a lot of structure in their lives?

I start feeling “I wish” when I read about Rayne and doubleknot and libby getting “readjustments”. Their speech being controlled, their minds being reworked. Things they’re required to do and ways they’re required to be. Their enslavement.


I want more. I beg for more.

I don’t know how to do that without feeling demanding.

Just thoughts.



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