Life

August 18, 2010 at 6:21 pm (Uncategorized)

Meds, child (two years old now!), notebooks, planners, household manual, discipline, punishment, cooking, chores, playtime, sex, sleeping, shifts, work, pets. Life.

It takes a lot of work. With the meds and gfcf, it is made possible for me. For us.

I’ve been feeling sort of . . . not out of control, but like I’m getting away with everything. Controlling behaviour, disrespect, not “thinking right”.

Is this really me, or is this because I read other sub blogs, people with a lot of structure in their lives?

I start feeling “I wish” when I read about Rayne and doubleknot and libby getting “readjustments”. Their speech being controlled, their minds being reworked. Things they’re required to do and ways they’re required to be. Their enslavement.

Enslavement.

I want more. I beg for more.

I don’t know how to do that without feeling demanding.

Just thoughts.

Goodnight,
Katie

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