Life

August 18, 2010 at 6:21 pm (Uncategorized)

Meds, child (two years old now!), notebooks, planners, household manual, discipline, punishment, cooking, chores, playtime, sex, sleeping, shifts, work, pets. Life.

It takes a lot of work. With the meds and gfcf, it is made possible for me. For us.

I’ve been feeling sort of . . . not out of control, but like I’m getting away with everything. Controlling behaviour, disrespect, not “thinking right”.

Is this really me, or is this because I read other sub blogs, people with a lot of structure in their lives?

I start feeling “I wish” when I read about Rayne and doubleknot and libby getting “readjustments”. Their speech being controlled, their minds being reworked. Things they’re required to do and ways they’re required to be. Their enslavement.

Enslavement.

I want more. I beg for more.

I don’t know how to do that without feeling demanding.

Just thoughts.

Goodnight,
Katie

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Making the bed.

August 9, 2010 at 10:12 pm (Uncategorized)

I made the bed. It’s almost an hour past my bedtime, but! I made the bed.

Now, I’m going to climb in.

Goodnight,
Katie

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Eep.

August 9, 2010 at 2:39 pm (Uncategorized)

Oh look. A blog.

Hi.

I have no idea what to post.

I’ll figure that out sometime today.

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